Good Dr. News!

Dr. Doesn't think at this point it is skin cancer but instead SHINGLES! I am on a med. I have to take 5x a day-he explained but I am still a little confused of the why, how and what...so you nurses out there please explain?? It is only one small spot and it itches at times-it did start out looking like a blister a couple weeks ago. My weird news for the day..
Been a actually pretty crappy day...Taylor moved today to OK, it is to frickin COLD and dreary and I am just feeling BLAH and lonely! Hope it is just for today-I had been doing really well mood wise and keeping busy and motivated.
See what Tuesday brings! For now I am going to go get in my warm jammies, watch tv and snuggle with my baby Beau!

Thanks for the thoughts and prayers! Always appreciated...

Trying to Keep Imagining!
Tracy

Off to see the DR

Short post...I am off to my dr. appt.-I have a suspicious spot on my chest. Got to have it looked at. I have had skin cancer removed from 2 other areas 3x-first time when I was 30.
(chin and nose). It was basal cell carcinoma and not life threatening but still had to be taken off/out. Praying this is something different-not cancer of course. Too much sun worshipping.
Pray it all works out ok!

Trying to Keep Imagining!
Tracy

Sisterly Love

Carley and her boyfriend Chris broke up the other night. She has slept with me the last 2 nights-she is heartbroken. She is 16 and this is her first time to know this kind of pain most of us have experienced at least once in our life. It hurts-physically and emotionally. She keeps telling me she wants the pain to go away-all I can do is tell her it will...give her hugs...reassure her she will come out of this a stronger, smarter person. I even sent her her balloons and CHOCOLATE at school.

She will be fine-I know that even if she doesn't know it yet. She is young but she is also very loyal and loves with all her heart. There is nothing wrong with that... but teenage relationships do run their course and are fleeting most of the time. Doesn't do any good to tell her this now-but she will figure it out...maybe with the help of her big sister...

In October my oldest daughter, Taylor and her fiance broke up. She had a horrific few weeks where I was her lifeline. I held her and was there to help her through a horrible time in her life.

Taylor is doing better and healing

Last night I watched through my own tears as Taylor sat next to Carley on the floor pulled her to her in an embrace, stroked her hair and soothed her with her words of experienced knowledge. It was endearing to witness and made me so proud of both of them. I have often wondered if they would ever be close like they were when they were little girls, if they would grow up and be best friends like me and my sister are-last night I watched as they shared their moment and I am reassured.

Taylor knows so well what the searing pain in her little sister's heart feels like, she remembers not being able to eat, she can recall the feeling of hopelessness and the thousands of tears. Taylor told Carley so many of the same things I told to her a few short months ago. Through her own life lesson she was able to reach out, show compassion and try to make it better for her sister.

I witnessed my girl's, my daughter's sharing sisterly love...nothing can beat that.

*added note-Connor loves his sister's too-he is obviously loyal and a male-his response was to want to beat Chris up. I had to smile and say that won't be necessary just give Carley a hug!:)

Trying to Keep Imagining!
Tracy

Where was I today?

Today was an Historical Day for our great country! It is one of those day's where other's will ask in the future where were you, did you see the swearing in ceremony for President Barack Obama? I am happy to say I was able to watch the inauguration ceremony for this 44th President, who is the new hope for this nation. A very exciting time during a time when our country is struggling, but the future doesn't look so bleak now as far as I am concerned. I have hope for change and change is needed and is good!!

Lots of change happening in my personal life these days-change is tough & painful it is also empowering and something that has to happen for growth to occur. so as I said before...CHANGE IS GOOD!

So where was I??? Well we know I was watching the festivities-no I wasn't there..I wish!! I was sitting in the dentist chair!!!! For those who have been reading my blog for a while you might recall how much I detest going to the dentist!! I do hate it and my dentist, whom is very kind and gentle, know it! I had to have another crown done-uggh! The bad part was getting my mouth numb enough to work on my tooth..that's how I got to see so much on TV (which they have in every patient room-very cool!) Up and down I went-with a total of 7 yes seven shots!!!
I was so numb I couldn't feel my entire mouth, but the job is done for today. I was brave :) and I got to watch something historical with the hygienist and the dentist.

but I will remember this day not for the pain of the dentist-but for the future of our country and all it holds due to a new era that began today!


So where were you today??

PS-I just saw part of his speech at the Commander in Chief Ball-Thanks for mentioning the families Mr. President! HOOAH!

Trying to Keep Imagining!
Tracy

We Have A Winner!

Caption contest entry winner is...Jojo at Random Insanities!

Her caption to the photo of my son and daughter was ..."You Did WHAT With The Cat?"

Thanks to all who entered. Jojo I will be emailing you about your prize which is a $25.00 gift certificate to Amazon.com!! Enjoy it!

The real story behind the pic is this: The hat is Taylor's (she is and always has been a hat freak-though I have yet to see her wear this one!). Connor saw it in her car and took it out and took it upstairs-he thought it was cool and there was no reason why he couldn't use it without asking!!! Wrong!!! His sister was pretty peeved-so later I had them re-enact their confrontation with a little extra acting involved.

So that's the real story-nothing about a cat, but the fur sure does look like it could be from one.

I love the looks on both of their faces-true actors :)

Trying to Keep Imagining!
Tracy

Tag... I'm It!

My friend Laura has tagged me-so I am it as they say. (I always loved the game of tag & hide and go seek when I was a kid! I can remember that feeling of adrenaline and the pure joy of running and finding the perfect hiding place in time!)

Anyway this is a little different..but also fun!

The tag says I need to go to the 4th folder on my computer photo files. Choose the 4th picture, then tell the story behind the photo.

The photo from above is actually one of my favorite pictures of my sister and me with our kids (pre-Connor days). The date is around 1994 and we are at the Lake of the Ozark's for a vacation at my sister and bro-in-law's cabin. We used to have such a great time all together there-swimming, boating, playing games, hanging out by the campfire and just being together.

The kids all played together so well and I know my girls have some of their fondest childhood memories from the "cabin". I think this was one of the first times we went after they bought it.

The girls were 2 and 5 and my nephews 4 and 7 (I think).

I look so young and skinny too-so I really love the picture :) So that my pic and my story.

Now it is your turn...I had to pick four people since 4 seems to be the theme but by all means play if you want to..

Brandy

Amy

Jojo

Amber

Here are the rules:Go to the fourth folder on your computer where you store photos. Select your fourth picture (no exceptions)Post the picture with a story and a link to the person who tagged you tag 4 people to do the same.

Let me know if you played!!!

Trying to Keep Imagining!
Tracy

My First Caption Contest-Has been extended!!!

UPDATE: I hope for all of you who have left a caption suggestion so far don't mind too much if I extend the contest deadline until Friday at 10 p.m.!!!

Yes a contest on my blog....why you ask???? Why Not??? plus life is way too serious and complicated and busy right now I wanted to blog but my mind wasn't cooperating..so let's do this...leave your caption suggestion for the pic in the comments...prize..OF COURSE!

I haven't come up with that one yet but there will be one-gift card to something cool-I promise!

So get creative people...you have until Thursday, January 15 at 10am! I will announce the winner-make me laugh PLEASE! (the pic was posed and cracks me up. I will share the story behind it after the contest)

Trying to Keep Imagining!
Tracy

Looking Back

Better late than never..still on my sabbatical from blogging but I will be back soon and know I have some catching up to do..don't give up on me :)

Make a Smilebox scrapbook

Trying to Keep Imagining!
Tracy

Missing in Action ???

I am here...just been taking a break.
Mostly due to having my computer at the computer dr.-caught a really bad virus :( So getting it re-built so it should be like new without the cost of an actually "new" computer. Just praying all my data gets transferred over-my pictures and videos are safe on my external drive or I would be much more worried. My pictures are at the top of my list of most precious things!!!!

Using another computer so I can't post any Christmas or New Year's Pics-I will do that soon!!!

The break has been good I have been busy....we took down all the Christmas decor earlier than usual this year (I am doing a Big Happy Dance!!!). Took it down Tuesday-cleaned till I was sore ..why you ask? We finally got new Living room furniture!!!!!!!! Sofa, recliner, 2 tables and an area rug!!! I love it so much!!! Oh and I got a new TV given to me for Christmas...32 inch flat screen. Now you all know where I will be spending my time-LOL.

My next big project is getting the bedroom cleaned and organized before the computer techie delivers my computer next week-too much stuff (especially papers...) and not enough room.
I dislike clutter a LOT but somehow my room is swallowing me with all of my scrapbook stuff, computer stuff, paper that needs to be gone thru plus clothes in all sizes-my closet is packed and I still have nothing to wear???

Lets see what else...oh I went to my new counselor on Monday-loved him...seeing him again tomorrow to get all the basic info. out of the way, then start on the EMDR therapy. He did diagnose me with...PTSD! Finally validation!

Went to my regular dr. yesterday-had blood work done-looking at my cholesterol, liver enzymes and to see if I have RA. I have been having issues with my feet for months, now my hands cramping and my joints in my fingers swelling along with some other symptoms. Still unsure about the stomach issues-so probably will have to have that ultra sound on my gallbladder.

Some good and some unsure but I am going to try and be in the moment in 2009! as well as not be a rug for others to walk on...I haven't forgot about my list!!!

Happy New Year to you all-Make 2009 Fine!

Trying to Keep Imagining!
Tracy