Monday, November 10, 2008

It Boggles My Mind

Edited for those of you that read my blog and don't like what I say but cannot leave comments-DON"T READ IT! This is my blog, my feelings and my experiences. I don't write half the crap I should or could. Don't like it don't read

I am so worked up tonight after Rod and I met with a "counselor"-I am using that term lightly in this case-. This was all supposed to be about Connor and getting him the help and working on him with coping skills-his issues that we feel have been put on the back burner way too long. This was the second appt.-1st time he met with Connor and I-but mostly spoke with me.

What a joke!!! This man hasn't a clue about dealing with the huge piece of the puzzle that is our reality-Rodney was deployed, went to war, was wounded, has been fighting the military for 2 years and that the kids and I were affected also. He actually handed me a brochure meant for any American kid at the Middle School age and how to talk to them about war and terrorism when it reaches close to home. I was offended-close to home-you try being in the same house day after day.

I don't understand why people in general don't get why we aren't like everyone else???
I am upset, frustrated and at a loss tonight. Tomorrow is Veteran's Day-remember to thank a VET-but also ask them what needs to change and how their needs and their families are being met. May sound cynical but is how I feel. All we want is to have people try to understand. Is that too much to ask of our fellow Americans? No special treatment-just true caring and concern. It would go a long way in my book. A vacation or retreat to be with other's of our "kind" would be fantastic but I am tired of searching and not having the right connections.
Heck the group that adopted us-if past experience from the last year shows anything they won't remember Rodney's b-day on the 13th or Carley's on the 19th. They wanted the dates last Christmas-we supplied them-we have felt very disappointed. Don't promise people especially kids who have been disappointed over and over again and not come through-hoping they will come through. We need to know-I need to know we matter as people and that what we have been through is justification for all our feelings.

I know most of you that comment on my blog do try and understand-I appreciate that.
When you talk to others remind them that Vets need more than a salute-they need people to care in whatever form that takes-not just for the first 2 weeks they are home.



Trying to Keep Imagining!
Tracy

1 comment:

Dana said...

Girl you have EVERY right to be upset, frustrated and just plain pissed! It truly is insane what you guys have, and continue, to go through. I know that I haven't got a clue and that you are only posting bits and pieces of the puzzle, but the truth of the matter is, most people couldn't handle seeing the true picture.

The only thing you can do is continue to fight. Fight for the proper care and treatment. It sucks that you have to fight for something that everyone should be falling over themselves to hand to you on a silver platter, but you can't change people. You can't change the system. Just work it the best you can. Good luck.

And, thank you. Thank you all. Rodney, you, the kids, your parents, everyone!